1 Year Heartbreak Anniversary

It’s been one year since my ex and I broke up. 

I still think about him everyday. I still miss him. I still wish he’d text me (and simultaneously hope he’ll stay away). 

I’m also living my best life. I feel lighter and more free than when we were together. I’m able to focus on myself fully. I’m having experiences I wouldn’t have if we’d been together. 

All in—I’m still hurting AND I’m okay. 

Nothing about this healing process has been linear. Some days, I feel settled in the decision we made to part ways. 

And some days, out of the blue, my heart yearns for him again. The sadness at what we could’ve been takes over. 

All I can ask of myself is that I let all these feelings flow through me. Don’t try to resist anything. 

It’s all temporary—the sadness, the peace, the anger, the happiness. And together, these emotions and feelings make life colorful. 

Most importantly, I’m also still grateful. Grateful to have known a love like we had. Grateful for the lessons I learned in love, and especially grateful for the ones I learned in heartbreak. 

They say that time heals all wounds. I’m definitely not fully healed, but I can confidently say I’m in a much better place than I was one year ago today. 

I know progress lies ahead of me, even if the road onwards and upwards is bumpy.